rain, rain, go away

The sky cried on my behalf this morning. i wish it all goes away. i really wish for that. why bother questioning why we even got here? how did we get here? how do you know?

Today's the ninth. ive grown to love this number since march 04. i always looked forward to the ninth of each month. it would mean some special endearments, some nice dinner for just the 2 of us. it was our day. nine represents many different things, some of which i relate to would be for tombola - nine's called the love potion; or chinese - nine means "jiu" means long lasting. what does it mean to you? did i type an sms too long for your phone to scroll? was the sms sent too late for you to have replied? i guess if you wanted to do something, you wouldnt let circumstances change that. so i guess you didnt want to reply or didnt know what to reply.

How fast. almost a month has passed. i still feel very very broken :( the hurt still feels very raw. you said im going to be happier right? you said that its going to be better right? you said that its best for both of us right? it doesnt seem to be happening but im trying and waiting for all of the above to happen.